I've had a bad spell just recently. I thought my bad spell was an after Christmas "thing" that I was going through. After a lot of thinking I figured out it's because I'm turning 30 soon and this got me down. From discussions with others it seems quite common to go through some thoughts about … Continue reading Five Years – A Journey Of Recovery
I've got a few things to get off my chest, so I'm going to write this a little more like a diary because I haven't written on here in a while. Bare with me whilst I figure out what the hell i'm doing. I've got talk about my psychosis and a bit about bulimia, and … Continue reading Depression, Eating Disorders and Psychosis.
I get a bit rocky this time of year, and this year has been no exception. I started to struggle at the end of September and then really struggled throughout October. I've been mainly struggling with paranoia. I've been worried about all sorts, and my mind has taken me on quite a few paranoid trips. … Continue reading What This Schizophrenic Believed during His Latest Rough Patch.
I'm spending this World Mental Health Day with worsening symptoms of my schizophrenia. this isn't fun, and its a little bit more than concerning for me. What this has made think about is just how far left behind some mental illnesses are. I am on social media. It helps me communicate with other people with … Continue reading Left Behind on World Mental Health Day.
being overwhelmed is always an uncomfortable feeling. I sit there overthinking the world, overthinking myself, and overthinking every single moment. I get caught up in negative words, negative voices, paranoid thoughts, and thoughts of doom and gloom. There's not really any action that has given me reason to be feel this way, no reason other … Continue reading Fighting My All-Consuming Thoughts.
I feel like this is almost like the start of a new year. I've had my holiday, now I need to look at achieving some new goals in my life. I suppose these are sort of like new years resolutions. This time last year I gave up smoking, and in turn, stopped self-harming, so I've … Continue reading New Years Resolutions.
Whenever there's a mass shooting that's blamed on mental illness I usually go quiet. I go quiet because i believe i suffer from one of the most stigmatized illness when it comes to mental illness and crime coming together. I have schizophrenia. Now i'm not saying the anyone in the latest of mass shootings had … Continue reading Schizophrenia and Shootings
I never really think about the differences in everyday life between myself, and someone who isn't a schizophrenic. But just recently I've been investigating schizophrenia a little bit, and how it affects me in normal situations. Now I haven't been experimenting as such, I've just been getting on with my life as per usual but … Continue reading Other People Don’t Have Schizophrenia, I’ve Learnt.
My CPNs, therapists, psychologists and doctors have never really talked about my schizophrenia when I ever bought it up. Yes, they were happy to diagnose me with it, they were happy to acknowledge it but they were never happy to help me with it. It almost felt like they were all stumped when it came … Continue reading The “Professionals” Of Schizophrenia
I've been feeling guilty for the past few days. I've been struggling with my mental health for a little while now, a little more than usual, and I decided to ignore this issue in the hope that it would go away. It didn't go away, in fact it got worse. Now I cant be the … Continue reading Seeing My Illness written Down, And The Downslide Caused By The DWP System.
who am I? This is a question I've been thinking about just recently. It's not a hard question for me to answer.......when I'm asking myself, but what if someone asked me? this is where I struggle, and this is because I don't want to tell people about me. Sure i'll tell people about the standard … Continue reading Why I Don’t Have a Life.