so, ive decided not to ask questions on here anymore because they never get answered unfortunately. are people afraid to talk about mental health?! (this is a rhetorical question by the way). its been a fairly grumpy household today ive noticed, me most of all. this dog is doing my head in. i cant cope with it. its so frustrating having something so damaging in my life, and i cant really do anything about it! my family seem to be grumpy too. i feel like im rubbing my grumpiness onto them though, which obviously i feel guilty about. i had to get out of the house because of this.
so yes, i got out of the house today. i went to my local shop where i know people. it was ok. i got a bit anxious after a while and had to leave, but until then it was nice. i was with people i feel comfortable around. just to come home to grumpiness. gutted.
ive had some suicidal thoughts today, and i keep seeing spots in my eyes which is annoying, i keep rubbing my eyes.
i dont really know why i am writing on here right now, i dont have much to say. im sure ill think of something though.