im bad at the moment, i have decided. im getting suicidal thoughts atleast twice a day, and i dont know what to do. there are people to call, but i dont want to bother people. i mean, im not exactly important. cried myself to sleep last night, it was beautiful. beautiful?! you’re thinking. well yes, it was, because i got to feel. now i have no energy. i suppose i am feeling right now. feeling worthless, feeling helpless, and many other things similar. i havent actually told anyone any of this yet. i dont think people will care, and to honest, even if they did, they wouldnt know what to do, they would just tell me to do things, and when im in the mood im in, i hate being told what to do.