I’m having one of those days. One of those days where it feels like I’m not on meds (medication) and I’ve got all my problems. I can easily remember this feeling because its one i really don’t like. I feel like everything is bad. Everything is frustrating, incoherent to me, and all my thoughts are telling me I’m not good enough for anything. This is a little taster of what depression can do to you. I don’t think its anything more serious than an “off” day, but nevertheless its still bloody annoying.
As for my meds…… I take Fluoxetine (Prozac) for my depression, I take Respiridone for my psychotic symptoms, and I take Pregabalin for a bit of everything but mainly anxiety I think.
I discussed my meds with my therapist the other day. I think i can probably shift them around in the near future because I’m getting along quite well with my Fluoxetine especially, and I think it can probably do the job that Pregabalin can do. I think the time for experimenting is in the near year.
I’ve decided that I should really be using social media more. I think I decided this a few months ago and didn’t follow through, but I thought I’d give it another go and try to boost myself using t’internet. Social media actually boosts me. I like sharing what I’m up to, not in a self loving narcissistic way, but rather using it for a way to feel like I have some sort of social life. I don’t really have much of an outside life, not to say I don’t want one, but using social media helps me communicate with people with ease. It’s nice for me. You all have personalities and friends, I have awkward pictures and babbling blog posts.
Right, I’m going to watch the football in a hope that my mind can be taken off of, well, off of my mind.