At the end of 2018 and into the beginning of 2019 I said the cliched words “this is my year”, and I really meant these words. It’s a month into the year and things are really going my way, and I don’t think its luck. See, I made a plan for January. My plan was to start going down some newly made paths in my life. I wanted to start volunteering again. I had this idea that, with the support of my family, I would do this. My further paths come off of this path. Get a job, move out, get a few more friends (I’m hoping that last one will come with everything else). I’ve started.
After four years of recovery (still going) I’m starting to get my life back on track. I’ve had failed attempts at this since I left work but this feels really good. I applied to volunteer somewhere, for something rather close to my heart, and I’m in. It’s mental health related. I’ve been in training for a while and its fascinating. I’m getting really stuck in and learning a ton of stuff! This is the first step in, I imagine, many steps this year. like I said, this feels really good, it feels right. I’ve got the right time to do this.
I’ve also been talking an awful lot about my recovery in the last few weeks. people have been intrigued to learn about schizoaffective disorder. I suppose it’s not a term many people have heard. I mean people have heard of schizophrenia, people know about emotional mental disorders, but put the two together and you start creating schizoaffective disorder. I’ve been talking about my experience, the last four years, and also a lot about my past. I’m not really used to talking so freely, person to person, about my illness. I do talk about it with my family quite a lot, ive had my therapists, and I have this blog space as well. It’s been nice to chat, and it’s been nice for myself, to know that my experience is knowledge, and to share my knowledge feels really good! I’ve realized that my volunteering opportunity is really going to benefit me and my experience.
January has certainly been the month for me. Birthday, started volunteering, and my mood has really picked up. Lets see if February can keep up!