I've been feeling guilty for the past few days. I've been struggling with my mental health for a little while now, a little more than usual, and I decided to ignore this issue in the hope that it would go away. It didn't go away, in fact it got worse. Now I cant be the … Continue reading Seeing My Illness written Down, And The Downslide Caused By The DWP System.
who am I? This is a question I've been thinking about just recently. It's not a hard question for me to answer.......when I'm asking myself, but what if someone asked me? this is where I struggle, and this is because I don't want to tell people about me. Sure i'll tell people about the standard … Continue reading Why I Don’t Have a Life.
I think i'm having a bit of crisis at the moment, and I'm having this crisis in quiet. I've decided to come here and write down whats going on in my head because I cant really find the words to tell a person, so maybe you lot can just read it and that'll be fine. … Continue reading Crisis of Fear and Commitment
Just recently I've been struggling to get out of bed. Usually this would be because i'm not feeling great and my mental health has deteriorated a bit. But this time it's because i'm tired. I'm tired because I've been busy, but what is 'busy'? have I really been busy, or am I just using what … Continue reading A Week of Fatigue From a Single Days Work.
Recently I've been advancing my life. When I say I've been advancing my life - I mean I've actually done something with my life to try and affect my future. "What have you done?" I hear you ask..... Well for starters I've been in training for the last two months. My training has been for … Continue reading Training For My Future
Sometimes I sit here and think about my past mental health problems. I often think about those times where things were really difficult, and they are really vivid memories. I thought i'd write about three different times when psychotic delusions have been dangerous for my health, and sometimes dangerous for my life 1. I once … Continue reading My Psychotic Delusions.
sometimes I just wanna go out and buy a pack of twenty L&B cigarettes and smoke the whole lot. sometimes the urge to smoke is so huge it seems like the only solution to my incessant mind. My mind feels like its been taken over by some devilish entity that only wants to destroy me, … Continue reading Smoking Urges and Schizophrenia