My first full day of not smoking is coming to an end. I've done really well today. Sure, I've been grumpy, I've had a bit of trouble keeping my head from making up scenarios, but I've spent the day without cigarettes. I had a conversation with a family member which also made me decide on … Continue reading Malfunctioning? Not so much.
so, ive been chatting these evening and it reminded me of something ive been thinking about recently. i thoughts id chat about them now. again, recently i realised i dont 'visualise' things the same way others do. i found out that people can actually visualise their thoughts using their minds eye. i thought a minds … Continue reading My my………. My mind!
im back to where i live now. i had a nice few days away, which were relatively stress free, much less stressy than my usual day to day life, and theres reason for that. ive been for my walk today, this one was back at the beach. i kept catching myself losing track of what … Continue reading Do I care if I die?
im feeling a little lonely today. ive got the whole wanting a relationship head on. im being silly i know but at least im thinking about something other than self obsessive crying to myself about how my head isnt as good as id like it to be. i think not having much social life in … Continue reading ‘That’s what friends are for’
i went to the beach again and saw some horrific erosion on the cliffs near me. some parts have been eroded ten metres recently. there were also a lot of dead starfish on the beach, also due to the bad weather on the east coast in the last couple of weeks. also, it turns out … Continue reading Life’s a beach…..
is it a distraction if what is 'distracting' you is actually making you feel worse, just in a different way? i don't know, but i could do without it because its very frustrating. im making as much effort as possible right now to sort shit out, im trying to go out, im trying to communicate … Continue reading I went to the beach, i’m now going again.
the poisoning thing in salisbury isnt good for me at all. im getting back to palonium ( hopefully thats how you spell it) paranoia. i cant get back there, it took me years to get over that worry. i wont go into details, but i will say its distressing for me when i think that … Continue reading blowing smoke, less hair, and poisonous paranoia!