i went to the beach again and saw some horrific erosion on the cliffs near me. some parts have been eroded ten metres recently. there were also a lot of dead starfish on the beach, also due to the bad weather on the east coast in the last couple of weeks. also, it turns out … Continue reading Life’s a beach…..
is it a distraction if what is 'distracting' you is actually making you feel worse, just in a different way? i don't know, but i could do without it because its very frustrating. im making as much effort as possible right now to sort shit out, im trying to go out, im trying to communicate … Continue reading I went to the beach, i’m now going again.
the poisoning thing in salisbury isnt good for me at all. im getting back to palonium ( hopefully thats how you spell it) paranoia. i cant get back there, it took me years to get over that worry. i wont go into details, but i will say its distressing for me when i think that … Continue reading blowing smoke, less hair, and poisonous paranoia!
I've written, as professionally as possible, a lot on how people can help those with mental health issues, how people can help themselves when living around and supporting people with mental health issues, and what support there is and what support there potentially could be in the future. The issue I'm having is, my mental … Continue reading Writing to help, need help to show my writing.
when a doctor doesnt listen to an issue its quite difficult to make them know what is going to happen to yourself. my skin is getting worse and worse by the day. i went to the doctors a couple of weeks ago to talk about this issue and the doctor prescribed 'stuff' that would clear … Continue reading When a Doctor doesn’t listen…What do i do?
i went to my informal interview for volunteering today, it was not what i expected and the interviewers quickly realised this. i was having an interview for something i hadnt even applied for which was odd to say the least. i was honest and told them i was looking for something different and they said … Continue reading Rest of the week plans….I need some!
well, i had a meeting today with a CPN (im pretty sure it stands for community psychiatric nurse) and someone else with him them, someone who was observing. it went alright. they said the same thing all medical people say 'you have a very good understanding of your illness'. i know i do, ive had … Continue reading CPN, EEG, and a big change (probably)
the last few days have been incredibly difficult. i imagine people will judge me for it, i imagine people will form some strong opinions against me because of the past few days as well. do you know what, i wont be able to change those opinions and views yet they have 0.1% of the information … Continue reading visual snow, aphantasia, opinion and weakness.
I try and grab onto all the positivity I see but sometimes it's hard for me to see. I see negativity in everything, I even see negativity that perhaps isn't even there. My mind will go through every single scenario, it will jump to the bad conclusions first, all of them. When I am hit … Continue reading Life at the thud end. I know the pit has a bottom, it’s a long way down.
I am a single soldier that fights ten thousand demons every day of my life. I want help but it seems I don't need it. I will stop fighting when it is no longer my decision to stop. I promise myself that I will never give up on my fight.