I've got a few things to get off my chest, so I'm going to write this a little more like a diary because I haven't written on here in a while. Bare with me whilst I figure out what the hell i'm doing. I've got talk about my psychosis and a bit about bulimia, and … Continue reading Depression, Eating Disorders and Psychosis.
I'm spending this World Mental Health Day with worsening symptoms of my schizophrenia. this isn't fun, and its a little bit more than concerning for me. What this has made think about is just how far left behind some mental illnesses are. I am on social media. It helps me communicate with other people with … Continue reading Left Behind on World Mental Health Day.
Whenever there's a mass shooting that's blamed on mental illness I usually go quiet. I go quiet because i believe i suffer from one of the most stigmatized illness when it comes to mental illness and crime coming together. I have schizophrenia. Now i'm not saying the anyone in the latest of mass shootings had … Continue reading Schizophrenia and Shootings
I never really think about the differences in everyday life between myself, and someone who isn't a schizophrenic. But just recently I've been investigating schizophrenia a little bit, and how it affects me in normal situations. Now I haven't been experimenting as such, I've just been getting on with my life as per usual but … Continue reading Other People Don’t Have Schizophrenia, I’ve Learnt.
My CPNs, therapists, psychologists and doctors have never really talked about my schizophrenia when I ever bought it up. Yes, they were happy to diagnose me with it, they were happy to acknowledge it but they were never happy to help me with it. It almost felt like they were all stumped when it came … Continue reading The “Professionals” Of Schizophrenia
I've been feeling guilty for the past few days. I've been struggling with my mental health for a little while now, a little more than usual, and I decided to ignore this issue in the hope that it would go away. It didn't go away, in fact it got worse. Now I cant be the … Continue reading Seeing My Illness written Down, And The Downslide Caused By The DWP System.
I think i'm having a bit of crisis at the moment, and I'm having this crisis in quiet. I've decided to come here and write down whats going on in my head because I cant really find the words to tell a person, so maybe you lot can just read it and that'll be fine. … Continue reading Crisis of Fear and Commitment
Sometimes I sit here and think about my past mental health problems. I often think about those times where things were really difficult, and they are really vivid memories. I thought i'd write about three different times when psychotic delusions have been dangerous for my health, and sometimes dangerous for my life 1. I once … Continue reading My Psychotic Delusions.
sometimes I just wanna go out and buy a pack of twenty L&B cigarettes and smoke the whole lot. sometimes the urge to smoke is so huge it seems like the only solution to my incessant mind. My mind feels like its been taken over by some devilish entity that only wants to destroy me, … Continue reading Smoking Urges and Schizophrenia
Its no surprise to those people who know me that I've been doing quite well lately. My mental health is playing ball at the moment which is the best thing. I mean, it's been playing balls for the last few months. Giving up smoking tested my mental health, and Christmas had a go as well, … Continue reading Schizophrenia and dating?