In my life I've been through a lot of lows. There aren't always reasons for these lows, they just arrive, sometimes with a bang, and sometimes, like this time, they arrive slowly. Now i'm not at any sort of lowest of lows but i'm at a stage where its really not great. With my schizoaffective … Continue reading Time to fight!
Today i'm sitting about thinking about everything and nothing. My mind is going to places it hasn't for a month and a half. I need to be careful where it's going to take me. living with schizoaffective disorder means i'm constantly waiting for that next delusion, or the next hallucination. i'm constantly analysing my thoughts, … Continue reading Anticipating October.
The last few days have been interesting for me. They've made me think about a few things, made me re-evaluate some of the thoughts I've been having, and some of the goals I need to create for myself. For the first time in just under a year I've been out somewhere unfamiliar, talking to people … Continue reading Bigger goals.
I've had many situations in the last twelve months where I've somehow managed to segregate myself from any social life that I had. Last September my mood changed, worsened, and caused me a lot of problems. I lost friends due to conflict, I marginalised myself from a lot of my family, and as a result … Continue reading Getting a life.
Seven weeks ago I was stuck in a pit of depression, psychosis, and down-right awfulness. I could see no way of climbing out of this hole myself, and I couldn't fathom the idea of someone, or something, helping me out. Seven weeks ago I started taking a new medication for my mental health. It was … Continue reading My ladder.
My first full day of not smoking is coming to an end. I've done really well today. Sure, I've been grumpy, I've had a bit of trouble keeping my head from making up scenarios, but I've spent the day without cigarettes. I had a conversation with a family member which also made me decide on … Continue reading Malfunctioning? Not so much.
I've been making lots of plans over the last couple of months. My will power seems to be quite good at the moment so I'm taking complete advantage of this. There are some plans I've stuck to, there are some I'm just starting on, and there are some plans I've got to get around to. … Continue reading Plans. Past, present, future.