I think i'm having a bit of crisis at the moment, and I'm having this crisis in quiet. I've decided to come here and write down whats going on in my head because I cant really find the words to tell a person, so maybe you lot can just read it and that'll be fine. … Continue reading Crisis of Fear and Commitment
Just recently I've been struggling to get out of bed. Usually this would be because i'm not feeling great and my mental health has deteriorated a bit. But this time it's because i'm tired. I'm tired because I've been busy, but what is 'busy'? have I really been busy, or am I just using what … Continue reading A Week of Fatigue From a Single Days Work.
Recently I've been advancing my life. When I say I've been advancing my life - I mean I've actually done something with my life to try and affect my future. "What have you done?" I hear you ask..... Well for starters I've been in training for the last two months. My training has been for … Continue reading Training For My Future
Sometimes I sit here and think about my past mental health problems. I often think about those times where things were really difficult, and they are really vivid memories. I thought i'd write about three different times when psychotic delusions have been dangerous for my health, and sometimes dangerous for my life 1. I once … Continue reading My Psychotic Delusions.
sometimes I just wanna go out and buy a pack of twenty L&B cigarettes and smoke the whole lot. sometimes the urge to smoke is so huge it seems like the only solution to my incessant mind. My mind feels like its been taken over by some devilish entity that only wants to destroy me, … Continue reading Smoking Urges and Schizophrenia
Its no surprise to those people who know me that I've been doing quite well lately. My mental health is playing ball at the moment which is the best thing. I mean, it's been playing balls for the last few months. Giving up smoking tested my mental health, and Christmas had a go as well, … Continue reading Schizophrenia and dating?
Have you ever thought about switching brains with someone for the day?Just to see what you're missing out on? Or maybe to share an experience you have? Well, I've occasionally had conversations around switching brains with people. I think its an interesting subject, a subject that can't really become a reality, but interesting theory. Because … Continue reading Switching Brains
I suffer from schizoaffective disorder. I've come to learn that some of the normal things in life affect me slightly differently to most others, and i'm going to talk about one area of my life, one area of most peoples lives, that really affects this illness. Social media. just like many of us I've been … Continue reading How social media aided my recovery.
I've been thinking about therapy the last few days, specifically how my therapy ended last month. I was thinking about how sudden it was and how in the dark i felt afterwards. I've seen, recently, that other people have had this experience as well. It's nice knowing i'm not the only one who was a … Continue reading Therapy, and Fluid Diagnoses
So for the last few days I've been telling myself its okay to be a bit lost. I've been losing sight of the direction my life is going in and its a bit annoying. I'm getting caught up in the wildness of my mind telling me that things aren't going to plan, that i'm a … Continue reading Magic mind.