the sun has been out today but i havent been reveling in it. i havent really enjoyed my day too much. we had guests over for a barbecue which properly didnt help me. im not great with a lot of people so seeing people i hadnt seen in a while didnt help me. its not … Continue reading Two days left.
i made a last minute decision to have a barbecue this evening. it was just the two of us but it was still nice. it was nice to be doing something with my day. i actually managed to do something else with my day other than that. i was up bright and early this morning … Continue reading It wasn’t a bust.
So, i found out today that i didnt get the job that i was interviewed for yesterday. i wasnt sure how the interview went. i know i can think things went well and didnt, i know i dont always read a room well so i was skeptical of how it went. maybe i was too … Continue reading I need to bounce back.
im all prepped. i think ive done everything i need to do for tomorrow. for some reason something ive never really been nervous about is job interviews. ive never really had too much trouble composing myself for them once im in there. the bit ive always had trouble with is getting the motivation to get … Continue reading It’s better now.
ive been trying to give my motivation a boost today. i think this is something im mainly going to have to do on my own. im just going to try and boost myself with this post. what i will say is that i apologise if some of this rhymes, ive just been listening to a … Continue reading A weight off my mind.
the past few days have been difficult for me. i havent been doing much practically but ive been having to do a bit mentally. ive been tired because of all the mental weights ive been lifting. i feel i need a boost right now and im not seeing one right at this moment. ive got … Continue reading High tide.
why does anxiety sometimes just make a jump on you? why does it not let you have a good time? why did it make me go home early today?!?! i went to a beach clean today at Sea Palling, a local beach of mine where about a million tourists and locals seem to go as … Continue reading Beach clean anxiety.