up, and then down again. Up, and then down again. This is me right now. I'm not sure whether to be grateful its not all down, or annoyed that my mood is going down. Half the time, just like my mood, i am good and satisfied that it's not all down, and half the time … Continue reading The smile on your face.
There are some people really helping me right now. Helping me while I struggling at the moment. Struggling with my head. Thank you to those people. My army may be small, but it's powerful. I've put my plan into place. I'm making sure i'm in a safe space, talking to those people that help me. … Continue reading Bruised but battling.
Three and a half weeks. Well, just over that time. I haven't smoked for this long! I've been vaping which is something i'm not too keen on, I mean, is vaping bad for you? I reckon its gotta be better than smoking. Anyway, I've almost made a complete transition to no nicotine. So today I … Continue reading I think i’m in control of this mess!
In my life I've been through a lot of lows. There aren't always reasons for these lows, they just arrive, sometimes with a bang, and sometimes, like this time, they arrive slowly. Now i'm not at any sort of lowest of lows but i'm at a stage where its really not great. With my schizoaffective … Continue reading Time to fight!
Today i'm sitting about thinking about everything and nothing. My mind is going to places it hasn't for a month and a half. I need to be careful where it's going to take me. living with schizoaffective disorder means i'm constantly waiting for that next delusion, or the next hallucination. i'm constantly analysing my thoughts, … Continue reading Anticipating October.
The last few days have been interesting for me. They've made me think about a few things, made me re-evaluate some of the thoughts I've been having, and some of the goals I need to create for myself. For the first time in just under a year I've been out somewhere unfamiliar, talking to people … Continue reading Bigger goals.
I've had many situations in the last twelve months where I've somehow managed to segregate myself from any social life that I had. Last September my mood changed, worsened, and caused me a lot of problems. I lost friends due to conflict, I marginalised myself from a lot of my family, and as a result … Continue reading Getting a life.