I'm in a weird position, a position my mind has put me in many times. Now I like to chat. It helps me with my well-being and helps me control my mind, so when my mind decides it wants to tell itself that everything I'm saying is wrong, things become tricky. I mean wrong in … Continue reading Weird, Right?!
Sometimes my mind is more challenging than it usually is, and I've been in this situation for the last month, and do you know what..... I'm proud of myself. Here's why. I've been doing quite well in the last month. I'm now pretty sure that October hit me half way through September. I usually suffer … Continue reading Fighter!
There was a big family gathering yesterday and it was overwhelming to say the least. I started the day with weeks of pre-knowledge of the event. I was ready for anything. I was jeed up and wanted to take on the world. Well, perhaps not the world but I was ready to take on the … Continue reading Overwhelming anxiety.
Right now my mind is playing games with me. I hope you know what I mean. I'm having sporadic hallucinations which only last a few seconds but are there. I'm aware of them and I quickly pick up on what's going on, after all, nothing in the house was actually on fire, and the TV … Continue reading Hallucinations.
I wanted to start this by trying to tell you I don't communicate information very well, so I thought i'd just blurt it out like I've just done. My blog really helps me say stuff. It really helps me get a bit of something out into the world. I have a couple of people I … Continue reading Crummy Communication.
up, and then down again. Up, and then down again. This is me right now. I'm not sure whether to be grateful its not all down, or annoyed that my mood is going down. Half the time, just like my mood, i am good and satisfied that it's not all down, and half the time … Continue reading The smile on your face.
There are some people really helping me right now. Helping me while I struggling at the moment. Struggling with my head. Thank you to those people. My army may be small, but it's powerful. I've put my plan into place. I'm making sure i'm in a safe space, talking to those people that help me. … Continue reading Bruised but battling.
Three and a half weeks. Well, just over that time. I haven't smoked for this long! I've been vaping which is something i'm not too keen on, I mean, is vaping bad for you? I reckon its gotta be better than smoking. Anyway, I've almost made a complete transition to no nicotine. So today I … Continue reading I think i’m in control of this mess!
In my life I've been through a lot of lows. There aren't always reasons for these lows, they just arrive, sometimes with a bang, and sometimes, like this time, they arrive slowly. Now i'm not at any sort of lowest of lows but i'm at a stage where its really not great. With my schizoaffective … Continue reading Time to fight!
Today i'm sitting about thinking about everything and nothing. My mind is going to places it hasn't for a month and a half. I need to be careful where it's going to take me. living with schizoaffective disorder means i'm constantly waiting for that next delusion, or the next hallucination. i'm constantly analysing my thoughts, … Continue reading Anticipating October.