I've got a few things to get off my chest, so I'm going to write this a little more like a diary because I haven't written on here in a while. Bare with me whilst I figure out what the hell i'm doing. I've got talk about my psychosis and a bit about bulimia, and … Continue reading Depression, Eating Disorders and Psychosis.
I get a bit rocky this time of year, and this year has been no exception. I started to struggle at the end of September and then really struggled throughout October. I've been mainly struggling with paranoia. I've been worried about all sorts, and my mind has taken me on quite a few paranoid trips. … Continue reading What This Schizophrenic Believed during His Latest Rough Patch.
I never really think about the differences in everyday life between myself, and someone who isn't a schizophrenic. But just recently I've been investigating schizophrenia a little bit, and how it affects me in normal situations. Now I haven't been experimenting as such, I've just been getting on with my life as per usual but … Continue reading Other People Don’t Have Schizophrenia, I’ve Learnt.
My CPNs, therapists, psychologists and doctors have never really talked about my schizophrenia when I ever bought it up. Yes, they were happy to diagnose me with it, they were happy to acknowledge it but they were never happy to help me with it. It almost felt like they were all stumped when it came … Continue reading The “Professionals” Of Schizophrenia
Just recently I've been struggling to get out of bed. Usually this would be because i'm not feeling great and my mental health has deteriorated a bit. But this time it's because i'm tired. I'm tired because I've been busy, but what is 'busy'? have I really been busy, or am I just using what … Continue reading A Week of Fatigue From a Single Days Work.
Sometimes I sit here and think about my past mental health problems. I often think about those times where things were really difficult, and they are really vivid memories. I thought i'd write about three different times when psychotic delusions have been dangerous for my health, and sometimes dangerous for my life 1. I once … Continue reading My Psychotic Delusions.
I've been thinking about therapy the last few days, specifically how my therapy ended last month. I was thinking about how sudden it was and how in the dark i felt afterwards. I've seen, recently, that other people have had this experience as well. It's nice knowing i'm not the only one who was a … Continue reading Therapy, and Fluid Diagnoses
So for the last few days I've been telling myself its okay to be a bit lost. I've been losing sight of the direction my life is going in and its a bit annoying. I'm getting caught up in the wildness of my mind telling me that things aren't going to plan, that i'm a … Continue reading Magic mind.
At the end of 2018 and into the beginning of 2019 I said the cliched words "this is my year", and I really meant these words. It's a month into the year and things are really going my way, and I don't think its luck. See, I made a plan for January. My plan was … Continue reading Schizo-affective and succeeding!
I've had a bad spell just recently. I thought my bad spell was an after Christmas "thing" that I was going through. After a lot of thinking I figured out it's because I'm turning 30 soon and this got me down. From discussions with others it seems quite common to go through some thoughts about … Continue reading Five Years – A Journey Of Recovery