I get a bit rocky this time of year, and this year has been no exception. I started to struggle at the end of September and then really struggled throughout October. I've been mainly struggling with paranoia. I've been worried about all sorts, and my mind has taken me on quite a few paranoid trips. … Continue reading What This Schizophrenic Believed during His Latest Rough Patch.
I never really think about the differences in everyday life between myself, and someone who isn't a schizophrenic. But just recently I've been investigating schizophrenia a little bit, and how it affects me in normal situations. Now I haven't been experimenting as such, I've just been getting on with my life as per usual but … Continue reading Other People Don’t Have Schizophrenia, I’ve Learnt.
My CPNs, therapists, psychologists and doctors have never really talked about my schizophrenia when I ever bought it up. Yes, they were happy to diagnose me with it, they were happy to acknowledge it but they were never happy to help me with it. It almost felt like they were all stumped when it came … Continue reading The “Professionals” Of Schizophrenia
Just recently I've been struggling to get out of bed. Usually this would be because i'm not feeling great and my mental health has deteriorated a bit. But this time it's because i'm tired. I'm tired because I've been busy, but what is 'busy'? have I really been busy, or am I just using what … Continue reading A Week of Fatigue From a Single Days Work.
Sometimes I sit here and think about my past mental health problems. I often think about those times where things were really difficult, and they are really vivid memories. I thought i'd write about three different times when psychotic delusions have been dangerous for my health, and sometimes dangerous for my life 1. I once … Continue reading My Psychotic Delusions.
I've been thinking about therapy the last few days, specifically how my therapy ended last month. I was thinking about how sudden it was and how in the dark i felt afterwards. I've seen, recently, that other people have had this experience as well. It's nice knowing i'm not the only one who was a … Continue reading Therapy, and Fluid Diagnoses
So for the last few days I've been telling myself its okay to be a bit lost. I've been losing sight of the direction my life is going in and its a bit annoying. I'm getting caught up in the wildness of my mind telling me that things aren't going to plan, that i'm a … Continue reading Magic mind.