So for the last few days I've been telling myself its okay to be a bit lost. I've been losing sight of the direction my life is going in and its a bit annoying. I'm getting caught up in the wildness of my mind telling me that things aren't going to plan, that i'm a … Continue reading Magic mind.
I haven't written on here for a few months now, so I thought I'd get back to it. Things have been odd since I was last here. I was going through a really bad spell, nothing was going right and I was going through things I really didn't need to go through. I had a … Continue reading Things are looking good…
so, i dont remember good things very well so im going to try something this evening that i saw someone else do on their blog. im going to write about what im grateful for from the past week. i can hopefully come back to this at other times for memories, and maybe even a lift … Continue reading This week i’m grateful for…….
well, i had a meeting today with a CPN (im pretty sure it stands for community psychiatric nurse) and someone else with him them, someone who was observing. it went alright. they said the same thing all medical people say 'you have a very good understanding of your illness'. i know i do, ive had … Continue reading CPN, EEG, and a big change (probably)
I try and grab onto all the positivity I see but sometimes it's hard for me to see. I see negativity in everything, I even see negativity that perhaps isn't even there. My mind will go through every single scenario, it will jump to the bad conclusions first, all of them. When I am hit … Continue reading Life at the thud end. I know the pit has a bottom, it’s a long way down.
I am a single soldier that fights ten thousand demons every day of my life. I want help but it seems I don't need it. I will stop fighting when it is no longer my decision to stop. I promise myself that I will never give up on my fight.
volunteering interview tomorrow. i want the snow to completely hold off now until 11am tomorrow, i will be a lot happier with that. the same circle is happening that always happens as well. things get too much, nothing happens, i keep it quiet for a few months and then things get really really bad, someone … Continue reading ‘So watcha want’…..to achieve the below!
ive actually written quite a lot today, its probably nothing anyone will ever see. it all started off because i needed to distract myself so i gave myself something to focus on. so in three hours i wrote about 7000 words. im not sure how much that is when you look at it physically, let … Continue reading ‘Humans’
i reckon this a little more positive today. it seems ive arrived late to an album that's been out for months now. i havent listened to Paramore much in the past but every now and again i would hear a song from their newest album on the tv or radio and think 'this is pretty … Continue reading THAT question!
there are some things in life i think i need, but perhaps i dont actually need them. there are things that i cling onto in the hope that it will make things better, there are things that i think are a necessity in my life, and there are things i think are more important to … Continue reading I completely forgot what i was writing about so wrote other stuff.