I get a bit rocky this time of year, and this year has been no exception. I started to struggle at the end of September and then really struggled throughout October. I've been mainly struggling with paranoia. I've been worried about all sorts, and my mind has taken me on quite a few paranoid trips. … Continue reading What This Schizophrenic Believed during His Latest Rough Patch.
I'm spending this World Mental Health Day with worsening symptoms of my schizophrenia. this isn't fun, and its a little bit more than concerning for me. What this has made think about is just how far left behind some mental illnesses are. I am on social media. It helps me communicate with other people with … Continue reading Left Behind on World Mental Health Day.
being overwhelmed is always an uncomfortable feeling. I sit there overthinking the world, overthinking myself, and overthinking every single moment. I get caught up in negative words, negative voices, paranoid thoughts, and thoughts of doom and gloom. There's not really any action that has given me reason to be feel this way, no reason other … Continue reading Fighting My All-Consuming Thoughts.
I've been feeling guilty for the past few days. I've been struggling with my mental health for a little while now, a little more than usual, and I decided to ignore this issue in the hope that it would go away. It didn't go away, in fact it got worse. Now I cant be the … Continue reading Seeing My Illness written Down, And The Downslide Caused By The DWP System.
Its no surprise to those people who know me that I've been doing quite well lately. My mental health is playing ball at the moment which is the best thing. I mean, it's been playing balls for the last few months. Giving up smoking tested my mental health, and Christmas had a go as well, … Continue reading Schizophrenia and dating?
I've been thinking about therapy the last few days, specifically how my therapy ended last month. I was thinking about how sudden it was and how in the dark i felt afterwards. I've seen, recently, that other people have had this experience as well. It's nice knowing i'm not the only one who was a … Continue reading Therapy, and Fluid Diagnoses
I've had a bad spell just recently. I thought my bad spell was an after Christmas "thing" that I was going through. After a lot of thinking I figured out it's because I'm turning 30 soon and this got me down. From discussions with others it seems quite common to go through some thoughts about … Continue reading Five Years – A Journey Of Recovery
I'm having one of those days. One of those days where it feels like I'm not on meds (medication) and I've got all my problems. I can easily remember this feeling because its one i really don't like. I feel like everything is bad. Everything is frustrating, incoherent to me, and all my thoughts are … Continue reading When your mental illness reminds you it’s still there.
I'm currently thinking about some stuff that could potentially change my future. These questions could change the darker side of me. They could change the instability in my emotion. They could potentially heal some pretty hefty wounds on my mind. I could possibly be at the beginning of something huge for me. I talked to … Continue reading I don’t believe in fairies.
There are different ways of knowing if your mental illness is causing problems. Well I know of a few different ways. Spotting these different ways has become an art-form for me over the last few years. Something happens within yourself and you start to question whether it relates to ill mental health. I started to … Continue reading It’s more than “in your head”