being overwhelmed is always an uncomfortable feeling. I sit there overthinking the world, overthinking myself, and overthinking every single moment. I get caught up in negative words, negative voices, paranoid thoughts, and thoughts of doom and gloom. There's not really any action that has given me reason to be feel this way, no reason other … Continue reading Fighting My All-Consuming Thoughts.
So it probably isn't a surprise when I say that my mental health hasn't been that great the last couple of weeks. I'm panicking at the moment that my bad mental health could be driving people away from me. I've lost enough friends and family from this sort of thing, so it wouldn't be a … Continue reading Bad Days and Custard.
There was a big family gathering yesterday and it was overwhelming to say the least. I started the day with weeks of pre-knowledge of the event. I was ready for anything. I was jeed up and wanted to take on the world. Well, perhaps not the world but I was ready to take on the … Continue reading Overwhelming anxiety.
up, and then down again. Up, and then down again. This is me right now. I'm not sure whether to be grateful its not all down, or annoyed that my mood is going down. Half the time, just like my mood, i am good and satisfied that it's not all down, and half the time … Continue reading The smile on your face.
There are some people really helping me right now. Helping me while I struggling at the moment. Struggling with my head. Thank you to those people. My army may be small, but it's powerful. I've put my plan into place. I'm making sure i'm in a safe space, talking to those people that help me. … Continue reading Bruised but battling.
im all prepped. i think ive done everything i need to do for tomorrow. for some reason something ive never really been nervous about is job interviews. ive never really had too much trouble composing myself for them once im in there. the bit ive always had trouble with is getting the motivation to get … Continue reading It’s better now.
today started well. i woke up and found out i have a job interview in a weeks time. this is a big deal for me. i havent been to a job interview in seven and a half years, which was for my last job. ive got all sorts going on with me. i dont know … Continue reading May the fourth be with me!
last night bothered me. it was last night when i told someone (before i wrote it on here) that ive been struggling the last few days. i didnt like admitting it to someone but it was beginning to get a bit obvious. i was talking on this blog about the things that werent wrong with … Continue reading Life, out of my control.
I should say that I may not be plagued by a lot of paranoia but emotionally I'm getting a bit messed up. It all started three days ago for no specific reason. I dunno what's going on, I just need to sort my head out. I need to escape from bad stuff again. I dont … Continue reading No hiding my emotional problems.
im off for a couple of days after my training this weekend. im off to see some family in another place other than norfolk. i needed some help to get there but ive managed to get that. i need a few days away to help me recharge after the last few months. yes, i know … Continue reading That man thing i wrote, and i’m seeing the help!