I wanted to start this by trying to tell you I don't communicate information very well, so I thought i'd just blurt it out like I've just done. My blog really helps me say stuff. It really helps me get a bit of something out into the world. I have a couple of people I … Continue reading Crummy Communication.
I've had many situations in the last twelve months where I've somehow managed to segregate myself from any social life that I had. Last September my mood changed, worsened, and caused me a lot of problems. I lost friends due to conflict, I marginalised myself from a lot of my family, and as a result … Continue reading Getting a life.
My first full day of not smoking is coming to an end. I've done really well today. Sure, I've been grumpy, I've had a bit of trouble keeping my head from making up scenarios, but I've spent the day without cigarettes. I had a conversation with a family member which also made me decide on … Continue reading Malfunctioning? Not so much.
the last few days have been down and then up. i was really struggling yesterday and the day before. i hit a low and wasnt happy about it. i was trying my hardest for the last couple of weeks, trying to maintain some level of composure. i did know it was only a matter of … Continue reading 20% battery.
last night bothered me. it was last night when i told someone (before i wrote it on here) that ive been struggling the last few days. i didnt like admitting it to someone but it was beginning to get a bit obvious. i was talking on this blog about the things that werent wrong with … Continue reading Life, out of my control.
ive moved about a bit from yesterday morning. ive decided to keep my momentum going. sunday provided me with some motivation so ive decided to go and stay with some of my family. its proving good, ive currently got some food i made cooking in the oven. im making bread pudding, something ive never made … Continue reading Momentum and motivation.
the weather is awful here today so i havent really been able to go for a walk. i know, the weather doesnt stop me usually but today i havent really got any motivation. today was a day where i didnt really want to wake up and instead i woke up fairly early. i have to … Continue reading The first two days don’t count.
oh well. i mean, im not offended, im not put off, i am upset though. i had built myself up to tell people i wanted to go to the family gathering next week and now its not best if i go according to family members. i mean, thats not great is it. my motivation was … Continue reading Even a little motivation isn’t allowed it seems.
Right, the UK soap 'Hollyoaks' is running a storyline about schizoaffective disorder which will start just after easter and im not sure whether i should watch it or not. whenever an illness similar to the one i suffer from (or in this case the actual one) is portrayed on tv i get quite emotional and … Continue reading Hollyoaks and schizo-affective disorder.
well this day has been just awful. i havent missed having a friend somewhere near in ages. i was wondering today if i had actually made my own bed when it comes to friends, then i remind myself that i have done that once in the past and this definitely isnt that. i dont regret … Continue reading Real bad day. Help?