Let me talk about something that not a lot of people experience much of in their life time. This one's niche for anyone who is trying to relate to a blog post, but hey, it might be an interesting read. i hope it is anyway. I have a feeling this ones going to be really … Continue reading Unadulterated Psychosis.
Luck isn't something I have a lot of. I wouldn't consider myself a lucky person, in fact I would consider myself quite an unlucky person. I would however say I've been lucky this October. In previous years Octobers have been a horrid time. I first told someone about my Mental health issues in October 10 … Continue reading Support, Not Suicide. I’m Very Lucky.
Sometimes my mind is more challenging than it usually is, and I've been in this situation for the last month, and do you know what..... I'm proud of myself. Here's why. I've been doing quite well in the last month. I'm now pretty sure that October hit me half way through September. I usually suffer … Continue reading Fighter!
There was a big family gathering yesterday and it was overwhelming to say the least. I started the day with weeks of pre-knowledge of the event. I was ready for anything. I was jeed up and wanted to take on the world. Well, perhaps not the world but I was ready to take on the … Continue reading Overwhelming anxiety.
Right now my mind is playing games with me. I hope you know what I mean. I'm having sporadic hallucinations which only last a few seconds but are there. I'm aware of them and I quickly pick up on what's going on, after all, nothing in the house was actually on fire, and the TV … Continue reading Hallucinations.
Today i'm sitting about thinking about everything and nothing. My mind is going to places it hasn't for a month and a half. I need to be careful where it's going to take me. living with schizoaffective disorder means i'm constantly waiting for that next delusion, or the next hallucination. i'm constantly analysing my thoughts, … Continue reading Anticipating October.
i talked to someone about my schizoaffective disorder today. its not something i do a lot, in fact i do it very rarely. i talked about how this illness seems to want to take it to the next level, how it changes things from 'maybe it'll happen to me' to 'i am being targeted, and … Continue reading Powerful paranoia.