I should say that I may not be plagued by a lot of paranoia but emotionally I'm getting a bit messed up. It all started three days ago for no specific reason. I dunno what's going on, I just need to sort my head out. I need to escape from bad stuff again. I dont … Continue reading No hiding my emotional problems.
im feeling a little lonely today. ive got the whole wanting a relationship head on. im being silly i know but at least im thinking about something other than self obsessive crying to myself about how my head isnt as good as id like it to be. i think not having much social life in … Continue reading ‘That’s what friends are for’
well this day has been just awful. i havent missed having a friend somewhere near in ages. i was wondering today if i had actually made my own bed when it comes to friends, then i remind myself that i have done that once in the past and this definitely isnt that. i dont regret … Continue reading Real bad day. Help?
I try and grab onto all the positivity I see but sometimes it's hard for me to see. I see negativity in everything, I even see negativity that perhaps isn't even there. My mind will go through every single scenario, it will jump to the bad conclusions first, all of them. When I am hit … Continue reading Life at the thud end. I know the pit has a bottom, it’s a long way down.
I am a single soldier that fights ten thousand demons every day of my life. I want help but it seems I don't need it. I will stop fighting when it is no longer my decision to stop. I promise myself that I will never give up on my fight.
volunteering interview tomorrow. i want the snow to completely hold off now until 11am tomorrow, i will be a lot happier with that. the same circle is happening that always happens as well. things get too much, nothing happens, i keep it quiet for a few months and then things get really really bad, someone … Continue reading ‘So watcha want’…..to achieve the below!
after months of trying to get some sort of therapy session my first appointment for tomorrow has been cancelled and cant be rearranged yet. this is not good. i dont know if you can tell from my previous posts, but i feel like i am going to explode with frustration. ive got so much on … Continue reading The wait for therapy is back on…..
ive actually written quite a lot today, its probably nothing anyone will ever see. it all started off because i needed to distract myself so i gave myself something to focus on. so in three hours i wrote about 7000 words. im not sure how much that is when you look at it physically, let … Continue reading ‘Humans’
just a short one this time. its a bit of a moany one, and a bit of a mournful post for me. im saying goodbye to some parts of my life that help me, and will still help if i carry them on, but i have to live without those parts of my life i … Continue reading Saying goodbye to something i love
today is a bad day so far for me. im having to fill out for ms i really shouldnt be filling out, its stressing me out like mad and its difficult. was hoping someone would help me but no one seemed interested in helping me, oh well. last night i started to feel quite lonely … Continue reading Society stresses me out!