being overwhelmed is always an uncomfortable feeling. I sit there overthinking the world, overthinking myself, and overthinking every single moment. I get caught up in negative words, negative voices, paranoid thoughts, and thoughts of doom and gloom. There's not really any action that has given me reason to be feel this way, no reason other … Continue reading Fighting My All-Consuming Thoughts.
My CPNs, therapists, psychologists and doctors have never really talked about my schizophrenia when I ever bought it up. Yes, they were happy to diagnose me with it, they were happy to acknowledge it but they were never happy to help me with it. It almost felt like they were all stumped when it came … Continue reading The “Professionals” Of Schizophrenia
So for the last few days I've been telling myself its okay to be a bit lost. I've been losing sight of the direction my life is going in and its a bit annoying. I'm getting caught up in the wildness of my mind telling me that things aren't going to plan, that i'm a … Continue reading Magic mind.
I'm having one of those days. One of those days where it feels like I'm not on meds (medication) and I've got all my problems. I can easily remember this feeling because its one i really don't like. I feel like everything is bad. Everything is frustrating, incoherent to me, and all my thoughts are … Continue reading When your mental illness reminds you it’s still there.
Seven weeks ago I was stuck in a pit of depression, psychosis, and down-right awfulness. I could see no way of climbing out of this hole myself, and I couldn't fathom the idea of someone, or something, helping me out. Seven weeks ago I started taking a new medication for my mental health. It was … Continue reading My ladder.
when a doctor doesnt listen to an issue its quite difficult to make them know what is going to happen to yourself. my skin is getting worse and worse by the day. i went to the doctors a couple of weeks ago to talk about this issue and the doctor prescribed 'stuff' that would clear … Continue reading When a Doctor doesn’t listen…What do i do?
i went to my informal interview for volunteering today, it was not what i expected and the interviewers quickly realised this. i was having an interview for something i hadnt even applied for which was odd to say the least. i was honest and told them i was looking for something different and they said … Continue reading Rest of the week plans….I need some!
well, i had a meeting today with a CPN (im pretty sure it stands for community psychiatric nurse) and someone else with him them, someone who was observing. it went alright. they said the same thing all medical people say 'you have a very good understanding of your illness'. i know i do, ive had … Continue reading CPN, EEG, and a big change (probably)
im not having a grat day today. im so tired since ive started taking more medication. just trying to get up and motivate myself is really difficult. so im yawning away whilst typing this. my thyoguhts have been racing today as well. ive tried pre occupying my mind with phone calls to people, but i … Continue reading un-……..something.
ive spent the last twenty-four hours at my sister and brother-inlaw's house. I needed to get away sort of. I was going to be alone today if I stayed at home, so I decided to get J to pick me up. pretty much as son as I got in his car I felt better. not … Continue reading No plans right at this moment.