being overwhelmed is always an uncomfortable feeling. I sit there overthinking the world, overthinking myself, and overthinking every single moment. I get caught up in negative words, negative voices, paranoid thoughts, and thoughts of doom and gloom. There's not really any action that has given me reason to be feel this way, no reason other … Continue reading Fighting My All-Consuming Thoughts.
I feel like this is almost like the start of a new year. I've had my holiday, now I need to look at achieving some new goals in my life. I suppose these are sort of like new years resolutions. This time last year I gave up smoking, and in turn, stopped self-harming, so I've … Continue reading New Years Resolutions.
Whenever there's a mass shooting that's blamed on mental illness I usually go quiet. I go quiet because i believe i suffer from one of the most stigmatized illness when it comes to mental illness and crime coming together. I have schizophrenia. Now i'm not saying the anyone in the latest of mass shootings had … Continue reading Schizophrenia and Shootings
I never really think about the differences in everyday life between myself, and someone who isn't a schizophrenic. But just recently I've been investigating schizophrenia a little bit, and how it affects me in normal situations. Now I haven't been experimenting as such, I've just been getting on with my life as per usual but … Continue reading Other People Don’t Have Schizophrenia, I’ve Learnt.
My CPNs, therapists, psychologists and doctors have never really talked about my schizophrenia when I ever bought it up. Yes, they were happy to diagnose me with it, they were happy to acknowledge it but they were never happy to help me with it. It almost felt like they were all stumped when it came … Continue reading The “Professionals” Of Schizophrenia
I think i'm having a bit of crisis at the moment, and I'm having this crisis in quiet. I've decided to come here and write down whats going on in my head because I cant really find the words to tell a person, so maybe you lot can just read it and that'll be fine. … Continue reading Crisis of Fear and Commitment
Recently I've been advancing my life. When I say I've been advancing my life - I mean I've actually done something with my life to try and affect my future. "What have you done?" I hear you ask..... Well for starters I've been in training for the last two months. My training has been for … Continue reading Training For My Future
Sometimes I sit here and think about my past mental health problems. I often think about those times where things were really difficult, and they are really vivid memories. I thought i'd write about three different times when psychotic delusions have been dangerous for my health, and sometimes dangerous for my life 1. I once … Continue reading My Psychotic Delusions.
sometimes I just wanna go out and buy a pack of twenty L&B cigarettes and smoke the whole lot. sometimes the urge to smoke is so huge it seems like the only solution to my incessant mind. My mind feels like its been taken over by some devilish entity that only wants to destroy me, … Continue reading Smoking Urges and Schizophrenia
Its no surprise to those people who know me that I've been doing quite well lately. My mental health is playing ball at the moment which is the best thing. I mean, it's been playing balls for the last few months. Giving up smoking tested my mental health, and Christmas had a go as well, … Continue reading Schizophrenia and dating?