I'm having one of those days. One of those days where it feels like I'm not on meds (medication) and I've got all my problems. I can easily remember this feeling because its one i really don't like. I feel like everything is bad. Everything is frustrating, incoherent to me, and all my thoughts are … Continue reading When your mental illness reminds you it’s still there.
There are different ways of knowing if your mental illness is causing problems. Well I know of a few different ways. Spotting these different ways has become an art-form for me over the last few years. Something happens within yourself and you start to question whether it relates to ill mental health. I started to … Continue reading It’s more than “in your head”
i talked to someone about my schizoaffective disorder today. its not something i do a lot, in fact i do it very rarely. i talked about how this illness seems to want to take it to the next level, how it changes things from 'maybe it'll happen to me' to 'i am being targeted, and … Continue reading Powerful paranoia.
my head has decided to turn sour this evening and im not enjoying it at all. everything thats going on around me is frustrating me, my inner dialogue is playing havoc with my head, and i think im tired because of it all. i live with someone who is basically the polar opposite of me, … Continue reading My head turned sour.
so, ive been chatting these evening and it reminded me of something ive been thinking about recently. i thoughts id chat about them now. again, recently i realised i dont 'visualise' things the same way others do. i found out that people can actually visualise their thoughts using their minds eye. i thought a minds … Continue reading My my………. My mind!
im back to where i live now. i had a nice few days away, which were relatively stress free, much less stressy than my usual day to day life, and theres reason for that. ive been for my walk today, this one was back at the beach. i kept catching myself losing track of what … Continue reading Do I care if I die?
ive been for a lovely walk today, ive had a bath (TMI) and im just sitting relaxing. well i say relaxing, my mind is a bit fast today but i think its because of what i wrote earlier. im just fascinated by my own mind and others like it. i mean, why wouldnt i be … Continue reading Big skies.
so i havent actually written on here for the last couple of days, this is partly because ive been lazy and partly because i wanted to just reflect on some good things and didnt want to write them down because i was worried it might all leave my head. i wasnt really busy on the … Continue reading I wouldn’t mind remembering yesterday.
ive decided that today im going to write as i go and write it all later (now). im doing this so i dont write loads of different posts today, ive been doing that a lot lately and i think i need to rein this in a little. the reason im doing my writing as i … Continue reading Head-work!
Wow! the sun seems to be bright today. ive got a beautiful view out to sea, its just got warmer, and im out of the wind. its perfect for writing. right, something has been bothering me the last few days. making up stories and scenarios in my head is one of the most annoying parts … Continue reading Bloody weather, and something that might help.