I'm having one of those days. One of those days where it feels like I'm not on meds (medication) and I've got all my problems. I can easily remember this feeling because its one i really don't like. I feel like everything is bad. Everything is frustrating, incoherent to me, and all my thoughts are … Continue reading When your mental illness reminds you it’s still there.
There are different ways of knowing if your mental illness is causing problems. Well I know of a few different ways. Spotting these different ways has become an art-form for me over the last few years. Something happens within yourself and you start to question whether it relates to ill mental health. I started to … Continue reading It’s more than “in your head”
i talked to someone about my schizoaffective disorder today. its not something i do a lot, in fact i do it very rarely. i talked about how this illness seems to want to take it to the next level, how it changes things from 'maybe it'll happen to me' to 'i am being targeted, and … Continue reading Powerful paranoia.
my head has decided to turn sour this evening and im not enjoying it at all. everything thats going on around me is frustrating me, my inner dialogue is playing havoc with my head, and i think im tired because of it all. i live with someone who is basically the polar opposite of me, … Continue reading My head turned sour.
so, ive been chatting these evening and it reminded me of something ive been thinking about recently. i thoughts id chat about them now. again, recently i realised i dont 'visualise' things the same way others do. i found out that people can actually visualise their thoughts using their minds eye. i thought a minds … Continue reading My my………. My mind!
im back to where i live now. i had a nice few days away, which were relatively stress free, much less stressy than my usual day to day life, and theres reason for that. ive been for my walk today, this one was back at the beach. i kept catching myself losing track of what … Continue reading Do I care if I die?
ive been for a lovely walk today, ive had a bath (TMI) and im just sitting relaxing. well i say relaxing, my mind is a bit fast today but i think its because of what i wrote earlier. im just fascinated by my own mind and others like it. i mean, why wouldnt i be … Continue reading Big skies.