the other day i had some motivation, i had some momentum in making myself feel better. i woke up tuesday morning and it just started draining away very quickly. sometimes when you have mental health issues there is no reason for a downturn. it annoys me when people ask me what caused it. 'what triggered … Continue reading Motivation = gone.
nothing bad to write at the moment but i wanted to write a little bit on here before bed and i feel its probably some good feeling stuff. I love comedy, especially stand up. if i can laugh its brilliant, if i can laugh lots of times its amazing. its not that i love my … Continue reading Good feeling stuff!
ive moved about a bit from yesterday morning. ive decided to keep my momentum going. sunday provided me with some motivation so ive decided to go and stay with some of my family. its proving good, ive currently got some food i made cooking in the oven. im making bread pudding, something ive never made … Continue reading Momentum and motivation.
oh well. i mean, im not offended, im not put off, i am upset though. i had built myself up to tell people i wanted to go to the family gathering next week and now its not best if i go according to family members. i mean, thats not great is it. my motivation was … Continue reading Even a little motivation isn’t allowed it seems.
i got somewhere a little further with my volunteering today. i got a call back from the person i called yesterday (and called today) and they said i can volunteer with them but i will have to wait until next week to find out exactly when and where, but im ok with that, its a … Continue reading Project 84, Hollyoaks (again), and motivation.
when a doctor doesnt listen to an issue its quite difficult to make them know what is going to happen to yourself. my skin is getting worse and worse by the day. i went to the doctors a couple of weeks ago to talk about this issue and the doctor prescribed 'stuff' that would clear … Continue reading When a Doctor doesn’t listen…What do i do?
I try and grab onto all the positivity I see but sometimes it's hard for me to see. I see negativity in everything, I even see negativity that perhaps isn't even there. My mind will go through every single scenario, it will jump to the bad conclusions first, all of them. When I am hit … Continue reading Life at the thud end. I know the pit has a bottom, it’s a long way down.
I am a single soldier that fights ten thousand demons every day of my life. I want help but it seems I don't need it. I will stop fighting when it is no longer my decision to stop. I promise myself that I will never give up on my fight.
today is a bad day so far for me. im having to fill out for ms i really shouldnt be filling out, its stressing me out like mad and its difficult. was hoping someone would help me but no one seemed interested in helping me, oh well. last night i started to feel quite lonely … Continue reading Society stresses me out!
So, i took a few days off from writing on here, mostly because i had no motivation over the last few days. when i have no motivation i cant think of anything to write. so lets see if i write anything interesting today. As i've always said i never have a list of things to … Continue reading writing for the sake of writing?