sometimes I just wanna go out and buy a pack of twenty L&B cigarettes and smoke the whole lot. sometimes the urge to smoke is so huge it seems like the only solution to my incessant mind. My mind feels like its been taken over by some devilish entity that only wants to destroy me, … Continue reading Smoking Urges and Schizophrenia
I suffer from schizoaffective disorder. I've come to learn that some of the normal things in life affect me slightly differently to most others, and i'm going to talk about one area of my life, one area of most peoples lives, that really affects this illness. Social media. just like many of us I've been … Continue reading How social media aided my recovery.
I've had a bad spell just recently. I thought my bad spell was an after Christmas "thing" that I was going through. After a lot of thinking I figured out it's because I'm turning 30 soon and this got me down. From discussions with others it seems quite common to go through some thoughts about … Continue reading Five Years – A Journey Of Recovery
So it probably isn't a surprise when I say that my mental health hasn't been that great the last couple of weeks. I'm panicking at the moment that my bad mental health could be driving people away from me. I've lost enough friends and family from this sort of thing, so it wouldn't be a … Continue reading Bad Days and Custard.
I see a lot in the mental health community about stigma attached to mental health. I see it first person as well. I'm not unfamiliar with someone thinking its OK to talk to me in a certain way, or talk about my ailments like they're a joke, or not taken seriously. One thing I would … Continue reading I Stigmatize Myself The Most.
Three and a half weeks. Well, just over that time. I haven't smoked for this long! I've been vaping which is something i'm not too keen on, I mean, is vaping bad for you? I reckon its gotta be better than smoking. Anyway, I've almost made a complete transition to no nicotine. So today I … Continue reading I think i’m in control of this mess!
In my life I've been through a lot of lows. There aren't always reasons for these lows, they just arrive, sometimes with a bang, and sometimes, like this time, they arrive slowly. Now i'm not at any sort of lowest of lows but i'm at a stage where its really not great. With my schizoaffective … Continue reading Time to fight!