I've got a few things to get off my chest, so I'm going to write this a little more like a diary because I haven't written on here in a while. Bare with me whilst I figure out what the hell i'm doing. I've got talk about my psychosis and a bit about bulimia, and … Continue reading Depression, Eating Disorders and Psychosis.
I get a bit rocky this time of year, and this year has been no exception. I started to struggle at the end of September and then really struggled throughout October. I've been mainly struggling with paranoia. I've been worried about all sorts, and my mind has taken me on quite a few paranoid trips. … Continue reading What This Schizophrenic Believed during His Latest Rough Patch.
being overwhelmed is always an uncomfortable feeling. I sit there overthinking the world, overthinking myself, and overthinking every single moment. I get caught up in negative words, negative voices, paranoid thoughts, and thoughts of doom and gloom. There's not really any action that has given me reason to be feel this way, no reason other … Continue reading Fighting My All-Consuming Thoughts.
I never really think about the differences in everyday life between myself, and someone who isn't a schizophrenic. But just recently I've been investigating schizophrenia a little bit, and how it affects me in normal situations. Now I haven't been experimenting as such, I've just been getting on with my life as per usual but … Continue reading Other People Don’t Have Schizophrenia, I’ve Learnt.
who am I? This is a question I've been thinking about just recently. It's not a hard question for me to answer.......when I'm asking myself, but what if someone asked me? this is where I struggle, and this is because I don't want to tell people about me. Sure i'll tell people about the standard … Continue reading Why I Don’t Have a Life.
sometimes I just wanna go out and buy a pack of twenty L&B cigarettes and smoke the whole lot. sometimes the urge to smoke is so huge it seems like the only solution to my incessant mind. My mind feels like its been taken over by some devilish entity that only wants to destroy me, … Continue reading Smoking Urges and Schizophrenia
I suffer from schizoaffective disorder. I've come to learn that some of the normal things in life affect me slightly differently to most others, and i'm going to talk about one area of my life, one area of most peoples lives, that really affects this illness. Social media. just like many of us I've been … Continue reading How social media aided my recovery.
I've had a bad spell just recently. I thought my bad spell was an after Christmas "thing" that I was going through. After a lot of thinking I figured out it's because I'm turning 30 soon and this got me down. From discussions with others it seems quite common to go through some thoughts about … Continue reading Five Years – A Journey Of Recovery
So it probably isn't a surprise when I say that my mental health hasn't been that great the last couple of weeks. I'm panicking at the moment that my bad mental health could be driving people away from me. I've lost enough friends and family from this sort of thing, so it wouldn't be a … Continue reading Bad Days and Custard.
I see a lot in the mental health community about stigma attached to mental health. I see it first person as well. I'm not unfamiliar with someone thinking its OK to talk to me in a certain way, or talk about my ailments like they're a joke, or not taken seriously. One thing I would … Continue reading I Stigmatize Myself The Most.