I see a lot in the mental health community about stigma attached to mental health. I see it first person as well. I'm not unfamiliar with someone thinking its OK to talk to me in a certain way, or talk about my ailments like they're a joke, or not taken seriously. One thing I would … Continue reading I Stigmatize Myself The Most.
i stopped myself from writing on here earlier. i was full of angst, full of bad thoughts, and i thought writing it down would help but at the same time it probably wouldnt have made much sense. ive calmed down since earlier and thought id write now. things are difficult. im struggling with my mind … Continue reading A tipple for less trouble.
do you ever just have those days where you just feel lost. im having one of these days. you wake up and immediately know that things arent right, youre not sure what to do with yourself, your mind is jumping from pillar to post, and you just cant make sense of anything. i woke up … Continue reading One of THOSE days.
I need to start my day off with a walk more often. i woke up this morning feeling the same as i did yesterday. i felt down, alone, like a waste of space and time. i called someone to have a chat because i wanted something to do and someone to talk to. this was … Continue reading Walking into a good day.
its such a nice evening weather-wise so i decided to come to the beach and write this blog post. the weather has been particularly warm the last few days, and today was the hottest day of the year where i live. its been a scorcher really! my day didnt start off too well. i woke … Continue reading Paranoid problems. What’s even real?!
the sun has been out today but i havent been reveling in it. i havent really enjoyed my day too much. we had guests over for a barbecue which properly didnt help me. im not great with a lot of people so seeing people i hadnt seen in a while didnt help me. its not … Continue reading Two days left.
when a doctor doesnt listen to an issue its quite difficult to make them know what is going to happen to yourself. my skin is getting worse and worse by the day. i went to the doctors a couple of weeks ago to talk about this issue and the doctor prescribed 'stuff' that would clear … Continue reading When a Doctor doesn’t listen…What do i do?
I try and grab onto all the positivity I see but sometimes it's hard for me to see. I see negativity in everything, I even see negativity that perhaps isn't even there. My mind will go through every single scenario, it will jump to the bad conclusions first, all of them. When I am hit … Continue reading Life at the thud end. I know the pit has a bottom, it’s a long way down.
I am a single soldier that fights ten thousand demons every day of my life. I want help but it seems I don't need it. I will stop fighting when it is no longer my decision to stop. I promise myself that I will never give up on my fight.
So, I got very little sleep last night. And I have a feeling I'm going to go the same way again tonight. Today was tiring still though. I got really scared, and I'm not going to talk about why per say, I'm just going to say that I had never properly experienced what I experienced … Continue reading Unique to me.