i always wonder if my mental health is affected by the way the world is. not just regarding politics and other government failings, im talking about how society is. now, in my head the social aspects throughout the world need to change. im of an opinion that people in the world (as a whole, not … Continue reading Rant about the human race.
friday nights sleep did not go to plan. i got zero sleep friday night and it wasnt nice. i managed to stay awake for a while after, i didnt really feel sleepy until about 4pm saturday and then i got hit hard. i dont like getting no sleep at all because it completely messes with … Continue reading 34 Hours without it!
is it a distraction if what is 'distracting' you is actually making you feel worse, just in a different way? i don't know, but i could do without it because its very frustrating. im making as much effort as possible right now to sort shit out, im trying to go out, im trying to communicate … Continue reading I went to the beach, i’m now going again.
well, i had a meeting today with a CPN (im pretty sure it stands for community psychiatric nurse) and someone else with him them, someone who was observing. it went alright. they said the same thing all medical people say 'you have a very good understanding of your illness'. i know i do, ive had … Continue reading CPN, EEG, and a big change (probably)
I try and grab onto all the positivity I see but sometimes it's hard for me to see. I see negativity in everything, I even see negativity that perhaps isn't even there. My mind will go through every single scenario, it will jump to the bad conclusions first, all of them. When I am hit … Continue reading Life at the thud end. I know the pit has a bottom, it’s a long way down.
I am a single soldier that fights ten thousand demons every day of my life. I want help but it seems I don't need it. I will stop fighting when it is no longer my decision to stop. I promise myself that I will never give up on my fight.
today is a bad day so far for me. im having to fill out for ms i really shouldnt be filling out, its stressing me out like mad and its difficult. was hoping someone would help me but no one seemed interested in helping me, oh well. last night i started to feel quite lonely … Continue reading Society stresses me out!