ive been back where i live for about three hours and im already really tense. im so uncomfortable. i was really worried this would happen, i just didnt know it would be so quick. i need to maintain some sort of calm for the next few hours and i really dont think im going to … Continue reading Imprisoned once again.
the last few days have been down and then up. i was really struggling yesterday and the day before. i hit a low and wasnt happy about it. i was trying my hardest for the last couple of weeks, trying to maintain some level of composure. i did know it was only a matter of … Continue reading 20% battery.
i stopped myself from writing on here earlier. i was full of angst, full of bad thoughts, and i thought writing it down would help but at the same time it probably wouldnt have made much sense. ive calmed down since earlier and thought id write now. things are difficult. im struggling with my mind … Continue reading A tipple for less trouble.
do you ever just have those days where you just feel lost. im having one of these days. you wake up and immediately know that things arent right, youre not sure what to do with yourself, your mind is jumping from pillar to post, and you just cant make sense of anything. i woke up … Continue reading One of THOSE days.
its such a nice evening weather-wise so i decided to come to the beach and write this blog post. the weather has been particularly warm the last few days, and today was the hottest day of the year where i live. its been a scorcher really! my day didnt start off too well. i woke … Continue reading Paranoid problems. What’s even real?!
i made a last minute decision to have a barbecue this evening. it was just the two of us but it was still nice. it was nice to be doing something with my day. i actually managed to do something else with my day other than that. i was up bright and early this morning … Continue reading It wasn’t a bust.
the past few days have been difficult for me. i havent been doing much practically but ive been having to do a bit mentally. ive been tired because of all the mental weights ive been lifting. i feel i need a boost right now and im not seeing one right at this moment. ive got … Continue reading High tide.