In my life I've been through a lot of lows. There aren't always reasons for these lows, they just arrive, sometimes with a bang, and sometimes, like this time, they arrive slowly. Now i'm not at any sort of lowest of lows but i'm at a stage where its really not great. With my schizoaffective … Continue reading Time to fight!
Today i'm sitting about thinking about everything and nothing. My mind is going to places it hasn't for a month and a half. I need to be careful where it's going to take me. living with schizoaffective disorder means i'm constantly waiting for that next delusion, or the next hallucination. i'm constantly analysing my thoughts, … Continue reading Anticipating October.
sometimes its the smaller things that make me think more. maybe its the way someone acts when they're relaxed, perhaps when something isn't going as i planned in my head, or maybe its just a moments silence between talking. its amazing how something so little can affect me so much. the last few days have … Continue reading Maybe it’s self -“coping”.
ive been back where i live for about three hours and im already really tense. im so uncomfortable. i was really worried this would happen, i just didnt know it would be so quick. i need to maintain some sort of calm for the next few hours and i really dont think im going to … Continue reading Imprisoned once again.
the last few days have been down and then up. i was really struggling yesterday and the day before. i hit a low and wasnt happy about it. i was trying my hardest for the last couple of weeks, trying to maintain some level of composure. i did know it was only a matter of … Continue reading 20% battery.
i stopped myself from writing on here earlier. i was full of angst, full of bad thoughts, and i thought writing it down would help but at the same time it probably wouldnt have made much sense. ive calmed down since earlier and thought id write now. things are difficult. im struggling with my mind … Continue reading A tipple for less trouble.
do you ever just have those days where you just feel lost. im having one of these days. you wake up and immediately know that things arent right, youre not sure what to do with yourself, your mind is jumping from pillar to post, and you just cant make sense of anything. i woke up … Continue reading One of THOSE days.