I'm currently thinking about some stuff that could potentially change my future. These questions could change the darker side of me. They could change the instability in my emotion. They could potentially heal some pretty hefty wounds on my mind. I could possibly be at the beginning of something huge for me. I talked to … Continue reading I don’t believe in fairies.
There are different ways of knowing if your mental illness is causing problems. Well I know of a few different ways. Spotting these different ways has become an art-form for me over the last few years. Something happens within yourself and you start to question whether it relates to ill mental health. I started to … Continue reading It’s more than “in your head”
I see a lot in the mental health community about stigma attached to mental health. I see it first person as well. I'm not unfamiliar with someone thinking its OK to talk to me in a certain way, or talk about my ailments like they're a joke, or not taken seriously. One thing I would … Continue reading I Stigmatize Myself The Most.
I'm in a weird position, a position my mind has put me in many times. Now I like to chat. It helps me with my well-being and helps me control my mind, so when my mind decides it wants to tell itself that everything I'm saying is wrong, things become tricky. I mean wrong in … Continue reading Weird, Right?!
Sometimes my mind is more challenging than it usually is, and I've been in this situation for the last month, and do you know what..... I'm proud of myself. Here's why. I've been doing quite well in the last month. I'm now pretty sure that October hit me half way through September. I usually suffer … Continue reading Fighter!
In my life I've been through a lot of lows. There aren't always reasons for these lows, they just arrive, sometimes with a bang, and sometimes, like this time, they arrive slowly. Now i'm not at any sort of lowest of lows but i'm at a stage where its really not great. With my schizoaffective … Continue reading Time to fight!
Today i'm sitting about thinking about everything and nothing. My mind is going to places it hasn't for a month and a half. I need to be careful where it's going to take me. living with schizoaffective disorder means i'm constantly waiting for that next delusion, or the next hallucination. i'm constantly analysing my thoughts, … Continue reading Anticipating October.