I see a lot in the mental health community about stigma attached to mental health. I see it first person as well. I'm not unfamiliar with someone thinking its OK to talk to me in a certain way, or talk about my ailments like they're a joke, or not taken seriously. One thing I would … Continue reading I Stigmatize Myself The Most.
I'm in a weird position, a position my mind has put me in many times. Now I like to chat. It helps me with my well-being and helps me control my mind, so when my mind decides it wants to tell itself that everything I'm saying is wrong, things become tricky. I mean wrong in … Continue reading Weird, Right?!
Sometimes my mind is more challenging than it usually is, and I've been in this situation for the last month, and do you know what..... I'm proud of myself. Here's why. I've been doing quite well in the last month. I'm now pretty sure that October hit me half way through September. I usually suffer … Continue reading Fighter!
In my life I've been through a lot of lows. There aren't always reasons for these lows, they just arrive, sometimes with a bang, and sometimes, like this time, they arrive slowly. Now i'm not at any sort of lowest of lows but i'm at a stage where its really not great. With my schizoaffective … Continue reading Time to fight!
Today i'm sitting about thinking about everything and nothing. My mind is going to places it hasn't for a month and a half. I need to be careful where it's going to take me. living with schizoaffective disorder means i'm constantly waiting for that next delusion, or the next hallucination. i'm constantly analysing my thoughts, … Continue reading Anticipating October.
sometimes its the smaller things that make me think more. maybe its the way someone acts when they're relaxed, perhaps when something isn't going as i planned in my head, or maybe its just a moments silence between talking. its amazing how something so little can affect me so much. the last few days have … Continue reading Maybe it’s self -“coping”.
ive been back where i live for about three hours and im already really tense. im so uncomfortable. i was really worried this would happen, i just didnt know it would be so quick. i need to maintain some sort of calm for the next few hours and i really dont think im going to … Continue reading Imprisoned once again.