well, i had a meeting today with a CPN (im pretty sure it stands for community psychiatric nurse) and someone else with him them, someone who was observing. it went alright. they said the same thing all medical people say 'you have a very good understanding of your illness'. i know i do, ive had … Continue reading CPN, EEG, and a big change (probably)
I try and grab onto all the positivity I see but sometimes it's hard for me to see. I see negativity in everything, I even see negativity that perhaps isn't even there. My mind will go through every single scenario, it will jump to the bad conclusions first, all of them. When I am hit … Continue reading Life at the thud end. I know the pit has a bottom, it’s a long way down.
ugh! life eh! in the last couple of days ive been making worse thoughts in my head than are needed to be there. i mean, i do this all the time but these ones really are not ones i usually create. for some reason im purposely taking excitement out of small things so that i … Continue reading I don’t even know what to title this! Head stuff!
So, ive gone away for a few days. Im currently at the Fairfax arms in north Yorkshire, and its lovely! I just had my dinner and ive had a few drinks, and everything is merry. The people here are really nice and my room is massive (way more than I can afford, but who cares?!). … Continue reading Top of the pops! (the Michael Buble getaway eight)
So this blog post ive written by hand. This is the first time ive ever done this which is exciting, but im not great at transcribing from paper to computer so its probably going to take me a while ERGH!!!! Here we go….. Things make me think of stuff. So today I went for a … Continue reading Song Two (the Michael Buble getaway eight) pictures arent up, its 00:48, leave me alone.
Ok, im back. So now I will write about Helmsley castle now, but first ill just say my lunch was nice. Yes the weather was horrible and I did eat outside, but I ate there no less. I went to a little bakery (not momma’s little bakery (friends joke)) and I had a pasty and … Continue reading No good songs with a three (the Michael Buble getaway eight)
Morning! Im currently sitting beside a beautiful lake, half of which has iced over. As the ripples of the non-iced part of the lake move towards me it looks like the ice is moving like a dancing leaf on water. Theres a swan doing ‘swan things’, a couple of brent geese and to my amazement … Continue reading Four minutes (the Michael Buble getaway eight)
Theres a new guy working behind the bar. Hes new to me anyway, I imagine hes worked here for a while. Oh yeah, im back at the Fairfax now, I have a soft drink and peanuts (why not) and im writing this. While I was walking back I realised that the paranoia im getting at … Continue reading 5,6,7,8! (only 5) (the Michael Buble getaway eight)
Turns out my next stop is back at the hotel/inn/………….thing. annoyingly fifteen minutes after I started walking back the weather decided to clear up, I didn’t feel like going back again so I just carried on. I think I might go to Helmsley again this afternoon to visit a book shop, but I don’t know … Continue reading Seven minutes in heaven (the Michael Buble getaway eight)
................................so, where am i? well, i still have rash problems now (just incredibly dry skin, and a bit of irritation) but it also skips past a lot of other problems if i stopped with this. in november i decided to keep my mental health problems to myself (which obviously meant everyone thought i was fine) … Continue reading 90 days in 54 minutes (2)