Its no surprise to those people who know me that I've been doing quite well lately. My mental health is playing ball at the moment which is the best thing. I mean, it's been playing balls for the last few months. Giving up smoking tested my mental health, and Christmas had a go as well, … Continue reading Schizophrenia and dating?
im feeling a little lonely today. ive got the whole wanting a relationship head on. im being silly i know but at least im thinking about something other than self obsessive crying to myself about how my head isnt as good as id like it to be. i think not having much social life in … Continue reading ‘That’s what friends are for’
i tell you what, when you find music you really appreciate things become a lot easier in life, it sings the right things to you. while i was at home i thought id reach for the pen and paper and do some writing. ive never written while in this house though, we'll see how it … Continue reading Future love, future thoughts.
Life isn't a job. No-one should have to work on life to be happy, but sometimes people have to. I honestly think if i hadn't worked as hard as i have to even be content with parts of my life i would even be here anymore. I don't have a job so i can … Continue reading The biggest goal in a few words.
so my head is being very annoying today. its starting to delve even deeper into the constant thoughts im having. i try to fight all of them off but i cant because of whats going on. 'how widespread is this?' 'who knows?' 'am i safe anywhere anymore?'. these are ones im fighting with at the … Continue reading A box of coffee chocolates.
I'm rubbish and sorry.
im sitting here watching the vicar of dibley, and im thinking. my life is empty. i mean, there is stuff in my life. you know what...........i'll start again. i need some closeness in my life! i dont feel close to anyone or anything. i feel distant from everything. i want some closeness in my life. … Continue reading messed the beginning up!
im just sitting here, in the middle of the night now. i do this fairly often. im no night owl, or a morning person, just an insomniac from time to time. i remember once i stayed awake pretty much the whole time for 2 weeks. i literally has barely any sleep, we're talking.......5 hours in … Continue reading BIG FUCKING RANT!!!
so, im going to write a little bit more today, because i need to. yesterday's blog post was a bit of a lie. i want to move on with my life, but i dont feel like i am. i know what i want, what i need, what i know i should do, but im not … Continue reading lies, and self obsession.
hey guys. as you know im not afraid to talk about my mental health conditions, however what i am shit scared of is posting this next thing, its a beat poem (with no music obviously, because i am writing it on here), so i guess........just a poem on here. its called......life's over. here goes.......(sorry about … Continue reading Life’s over.