I feel like this is almost like the start of a new year. I've had my holiday, now I need to look at achieving some new goals in my life. I suppose these are sort of like new years resolutions. This time last year I gave up smoking, and in turn, stopped self-harming, so I've … Continue reading New Years Resolutions.
Whenever there's a mass shooting that's blamed on mental illness I usually go quiet. I go quiet because i believe i suffer from one of the most stigmatized illness when it comes to mental illness and crime coming together. I have schizophrenia. Now i'm not saying the anyone in the latest of mass shootings had … Continue reading Schizophrenia and Shootings
I never really think about the differences in everyday life between myself, and someone who isn't a schizophrenic. But just recently I've been investigating schizophrenia a little bit, and how it affects me in normal situations. Now I haven't been experimenting as such, I've just been getting on with my life as per usual but … Continue reading Other People Don’t Have Schizophrenia, I’ve Learnt.
My CPNs, therapists, psychologists and doctors have never really talked about my schizophrenia when I ever bought it up. Yes, they were happy to diagnose me with it, they were happy to acknowledge it but they were never happy to help me with it. It almost felt like they were all stumped when it came … Continue reading The “Professionals” Of Schizophrenia
who am I? This is a question I've been thinking about just recently. It's not a hard question for me to answer.......when I'm asking myself, but what if someone asked me? this is where I struggle, and this is because I don't want to tell people about me. Sure i'll tell people about the standard … Continue reading Why I Don’t Have a Life.
Sometimes I sit here and think about my past mental health problems. I often think about those times where things were really difficult, and they are really vivid memories. I thought i'd write about three different times when psychotic delusions have been dangerous for my health, and sometimes dangerous for my life 1. I once … Continue reading My Psychotic Delusions.
sometimes I just wanna go out and buy a pack of twenty L&B cigarettes and smoke the whole lot. sometimes the urge to smoke is so huge it seems like the only solution to my incessant mind. My mind feels like its been taken over by some devilish entity that only wants to destroy me, … Continue reading Smoking Urges and Schizophrenia