sometimes I just wanna go out and buy a pack of twenty L&B cigarettes and smoke the whole lot. sometimes the urge to smoke is so huge it seems like the only solution to my incessant mind. My mind feels like its been taken over by some devilish entity that only wants to destroy me, … Continue reading Smoking Urges and Schizophrenia
Its no surprise to those people who know me that I've been doing quite well lately. My mental health is playing ball at the moment which is the best thing. I mean, it's been playing balls for the last few months. Giving up smoking tested my mental health, and Christmas had a go as well, … Continue reading Schizophrenia and dating?
I get really down about how we, as human beings, treat the world. I see these awful stories about emissions targets not being hit, CO2 levels rising, plastic inside all these dead creatures. It's almost a guarantee that there is plastic inside every human because of eating and drinking things that have small particles of … Continue reading Environmental therapy
Luck isn't something I have a lot of. I wouldn't consider myself a lucky person, in fact I would consider myself quite an unlucky person. I would however say I've been lucky this October. In previous years Octobers have been a horrid time. I first told someone about my Mental health issues in October 10 … Continue reading Support, Not Suicide. I’m Very Lucky.
Three and a half weeks. Well, just over that time. I haven't smoked for this long! I've been vaping which is something i'm not too keen on, I mean, is vaping bad for you? I reckon its gotta be better than smoking. Anyway, I've almost made a complete transition to no nicotine. So today I … Continue reading I think i’m in control of this mess!
The last few days have been interesting for me. They've made me think about a few things, made me re-evaluate some of the thoughts I've been having, and some of the goals I need to create for myself. For the first time in just under a year I've been out somewhere unfamiliar, talking to people … Continue reading Bigger goals.
I've been making lots of plans over the last couple of months. My will power seems to be quite good at the moment so I'm taking complete advantage of this. There are some plans I've stuck to, there are some I'm just starting on, and there are some plans I've got to get around to. … Continue reading Plans. Past, present, future.
the poisoning thing in salisbury isnt good for me at all. im getting back to palonium ( hopefully thats how you spell it) paranoia. i cant get back there, it took me years to get over that worry. i wont go into details, but i will say its distressing for me when i think that … Continue reading blowing smoke, less hair, and poisonous paranoia!