I've had a bad spell just recently. I thought my bad spell was an after Christmas "thing" that I was going through. After a lot of thinking I figured out it's because I'm turning 30 soon and this got me down. From discussions with others it seems quite common to go through some thoughts about … Continue reading Five Years – A Journey Of Recovery
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Unadulterated Psychosis.
Let me talk about something that not a lot of people experience much of in their life time. This one's niche for anyone who is trying to relate to a blog post, but hey, it might be an interesting read. i hope it is anyway. I have a feeling this ones going to be really … Continue reading Unadulterated Psychosis.
I don’t believe in fairies.
I'm currently thinking about some stuff that could potentially change my future. These questions could change the darker side of me. They could change the instability in my emotion. They could potentially heal some pretty hefty wounds on my mind. I could possibly be at the beginning of something huge for me. I talked to … Continue reading I don’t believe in fairies.
It’s more than “in your head”
There are different ways of knowing if your mental illness is causing problems. Well I know of a few different ways. Spotting these different ways has become an art-form for me over the last few years. Something happens within yourself and you start to question whether it relates to ill mental health. I started to … Continue reading It’s more than “in your head”
Support, Not Suicide. I’m Very Lucky.
Luck isn't something I have a lot of. I wouldn't consider myself a lucky person, in fact I would consider myself quite an unlucky person. I would however say I've been lucky this October. In previous years Octobers have been a horrid time. I first told someone about my Mental health issues in October 10 … Continue reading Support, Not Suicide. I’m Very Lucky.
Hallucinations.
Right now my mind is playing games with me. I hope you know what I mean. I'm having sporadic hallucinations which only last a few seconds but are there. I'm aware of them and I quickly pick up on what's going on, after all, nothing in the house was actually on fire, and the TV … Continue reading Hallucinations.
Time to fight!
In my life I've been through a lot of lows. There aren't always reasons for these lows, they just arrive, sometimes with a bang, and sometimes, like this time, they arrive slowly. Now i'm not at any sort of lowest of lows but i'm at a stage where its really not great. With my schizoaffective … Continue reading Time to fight!
Anticipating October.
Today i'm sitting about thinking about everything and nothing. My mind is going to places it hasn't for a month and a half. I need to be careful where it's going to take me. living with schizoaffective disorder means i'm constantly waiting for that next delusion, or the next hallucination. i'm constantly analysing my thoughts, … Continue reading Anticipating October.
My ladder.
Seven weeks ago I was stuck in a pit of depression, psychosis, and down-right awfulness. I could see no way of climbing out of this hole myself, and I couldn't fathom the idea of someone, or something, helping me out. Seven weeks ago I started taking a new medication for my mental health. It was … Continue reading My ladder.
It’s better now.
im all prepped. i think ive done everything i need to do for tomorrow. for some reason something ive never really been nervous about is job interviews. ive never really had too much trouble composing myself for them once im in there. the bit ive always had trouble with is getting the motivation to get … Continue reading It’s better now.
