I'm currently thinking about some stuff that could potentially change my future. These questions could change the darker side of me. They could change the instability in my emotion. They could potentially heal some pretty hefty wounds on my mind. I could possibly be at the beginning of something huge for me. I talked to … Continue reading I don’t believe in fairies.
Sometimes my mind is more challenging than it usually is, and I've been in this situation for the last month, and do you know what..... I'm proud of myself. Here's why. I've been doing quite well in the last month. I'm now pretty sure that October hit me half way through September. I usually suffer … Continue reading Fighter!
I wanted to start this by trying to tell you I don't communicate information very well, so I thought i'd just blurt it out like I've just done. My blog really helps me say stuff. It really helps me get a bit of something out into the world. I have a couple of people I … Continue reading Crummy Communication.
Today i'm sitting about thinking about everything and nothing. My mind is going to places it hasn't for a month and a half. I need to be careful where it's going to take me. living with schizoaffective disorder means i'm constantly waiting for that next delusion, or the next hallucination. i'm constantly analysing my thoughts, … Continue reading Anticipating October.
sometimes its the smaller things that make me think more. maybe its the way someone acts when they're relaxed, perhaps when something isn't going as i planned in my head, or maybe its just a moments silence between talking. its amazing how something so little can affect me so much. the last few days have … Continue reading Maybe it’s self -“coping”.
do you ever just have those days where you just feel lost. im having one of these days. you wake up and immediately know that things arent right, youre not sure what to do with yourself, your mind is jumping from pillar to post, and you just cant make sense of anything. i woke up … Continue reading One of THOSE days.
yesterday i took the day off from writing on here. i took the day off to do some rational thinking about myself. yes, i took some time away to actually purposely think about myself, which doesn't happen very often. i came up with some interesting results to this thinking, and i talked about them to … Continue reading My personal steps to taking control.
ive come for a longer walk today. i wanted to see if i could completely clear my head today, and so far its going well. im just relaxing, away form the house, away from my problems it seems. its a bit mirky on the beach today but i think its better that the beach is … Continue reading Skylarks sing, Seagulls are squawking.
So, it was a nice day today and i had to drive in it. this reminded me that i need to get some tunes for the car for the summer! ive given the list of songs some thought and ive got myself twenty-six awesome songs from my past for a summer playlist and its....... diverse. … Continue reading This summers music, after a single sunny day in 2018.
well, i had a meeting today with a CPN (im pretty sure it stands for community psychiatric nurse) and someone else with him them, someone who was observing. it went alright. they said the same thing all medical people say 'you have a very good understanding of your illness'. i know i do, ive had … Continue reading CPN, EEG, and a big change (probably)