its such a nice evening weather-wise so i decided to come to the beach and write this blog post. the weather has been particularly warm the last few days, and today was the hottest day of the year where i live. its been a scorcher really! my day didnt start off too well. i woke … Continue reading Paranoid problems. What’s even real?!
i talked to someone about my schizoaffective disorder today. its not something i do a lot, in fact i do it very rarely. i talked about how this illness seems to want to take it to the next level, how it changes things from 'maybe it'll happen to me' to 'i am being targeted, and … Continue reading Powerful paranoia.
the weather is awful here today so i havent really been able to go for a walk. i know, the weather doesnt stop me usually but today i havent really got any motivation. today was a day where i didnt really want to wake up and instead i woke up fairly early. i have to … Continue reading The first two days don’t count.
the last few days have been incredibly difficult. i imagine people will judge me for it, i imagine people will form some strong opinions against me because of the past few days as well. do you know what, i wont be able to change those opinions and views yet they have 0.1% of the information … Continue reading visual snow, aphantasia, opinion and weakness.
I try and grab onto all the positivity I see but sometimes it's hard for me to see. I see negativity in everything, I even see negativity that perhaps isn't even there. My mind will go through every single scenario, it will jump to the bad conclusions first, all of them. When I am hit … Continue reading Life at the thud end. I know the pit has a bottom, it’s a long way down.
there are some things in life i think i need, but perhaps i dont actually need them. there are things that i cling onto in the hope that it will make things better, there are things that i think are a necessity in my life, and there are things i think are more important to … Continue reading I completely forgot what i was writing about so wrote other stuff.
today is a bad day so far for me. im having to fill out for ms i really shouldnt be filling out, its stressing me out like mad and its difficult. was hoping someone would help me but no one seemed interested in helping me, oh well. last night i started to feel quite lonely … Continue reading Society stresses me out!