being overwhelmed is always an uncomfortable feeling. I sit there overthinking the world, overthinking myself, and overthinking every single moment. I get caught up in negative words, negative voices, paranoid thoughts, and thoughts of doom and gloom. There's not really any action that has given me reason to be feel this way, no reason other … Continue reading Fighting My All-Consuming Thoughts.
I'm in a weird position, a position my mind has put me in many times. Now I like to chat. It helps me with my well-being and helps me control my mind, so when my mind decides it wants to tell itself that everything I'm saying is wrong, things become tricky. I mean wrong in … Continue reading Weird, Right?!
ive been back where i live for about three hours and im already really tense. im so uncomfortable. i was really worried this would happen, i just didnt know it would be so quick. i need to maintain some sort of calm for the next few hours and i really dont think im going to … Continue reading Imprisoned once again.
do you ever just have those days where you just feel lost. im having one of these days. you wake up and immediately know that things arent right, youre not sure what to do with yourself, your mind is jumping from pillar to post, and you just cant make sense of anything. i woke up … Continue reading One of THOSE days.
its such a nice evening weather-wise so i decided to come to the beach and write this blog post. the weather has been particularly warm the last few days, and today was the hottest day of the year where i live. its been a scorcher really! my day didnt start off too well. i woke … Continue reading Paranoid problems. What’s even real?!
the sun has been out today but i havent been reveling in it. i havent really enjoyed my day too much. we had guests over for a barbecue which properly didnt help me. im not great with a lot of people so seeing people i hadnt seen in a while didnt help me. its not … Continue reading Two days left.
ive been trying to give my motivation a boost today. i think this is something im mainly going to have to do on my own. im just going to try and boost myself with this post. what i will say is that i apologise if some of this rhymes, ive just been listening to a … Continue reading A weight off my mind.
i talked to someone about my schizoaffective disorder today. its not something i do a lot, in fact i do it very rarely. i talked about how this illness seems to want to take it to the next level, how it changes things from 'maybe it'll happen to me' to 'i am being targeted, and … Continue reading Powerful paranoia.
ive decided that today im going to write as i go and write it all later (now). im doing this so i dont write loads of different posts today, ive been doing that a lot lately and i think i need to rein this in a little. the reason im doing my writing as i … Continue reading Head-work!
the weather is awful here today so i havent really been able to go for a walk. i know, the weather doesnt stop me usually but today i havent really got any motivation. today was a day where i didnt really want to wake up and instead i woke up fairly early. i have to … Continue reading The first two days don’t count.