I feel like this is almost like the start of a new year. I've had my holiday, now I need to look at achieving some new goals in my life. I suppose these are sort of like new years resolutions. This time last year I gave up smoking, and in turn, stopped self-harming, so I've … Continue reading New Years Resolutions.
At the end of 2018 and into the beginning of 2019 I said the cliched words "this is my year", and I really meant these words. It's a month into the year and things are really going my way, and I don't think its luck. See, I made a plan for January. My plan was … Continue reading Schizo-affective and succeeding!
the last few days have been down and then up. i was really struggling yesterday and the day before. i hit a low and wasnt happy about it. i was trying my hardest for the last couple of weeks, trying to maintain some level of composure. i did know it was only a matter of … Continue reading 20% battery.
beyond my best judgement ive decided im going to start applying for a job. im not going big, only part time, but i need to move the boundaries of what i think im capable of right now. sure i think im not completely ready, but something thats been nagging in my head is that maybe … Continue reading Small big steps.
i suppose today has been OK. i went for a walk today which was nice, i didnt really want to be there, i was paranoid someone was following me the whole time, and every time i came across a person i worried that they were just thinking bad things about me, and thinking of bad … Continue reading Recovery college, wildlife, and dogs!
im feeling a little lonely today. ive got the whole wanting a relationship head on. im being silly i know but at least im thinking about something other than self obsessive crying to myself about how my head isnt as good as id like it to be. i think not having much social life in … Continue reading ‘That’s what friends are for’
i got somewhere a little further with my volunteering today. i got a call back from the person i called yesterday (and called today) and they said i can volunteer with them but i will have to wait until next week to find out exactly when and where, but im ok with that, its a … Continue reading Project 84, Hollyoaks (again), and motivation.
while i wait for a call back from the volunteery people in regards to what im doing in April, while i await a call from anyone in fact, or while i wait for the day to end i am listening to music to cheer myself up, delving into my past catalogue of music in my … Continue reading Music = Today’s medication
so, im back in the place where i live now, just relaxing and writing this before i make some dinner, it will be an easy 'meal' im sure. i think the last few days have been good for me because i managed to kick back and relax a bit. just little things like time away, … Continue reading Interruptions. I’m sure i missed a joke here.
spending my day alone pretty much today. not sure how thatll go, i mean, im not at home so there might be more for me to do that isnt completely normal and that might amuse me. i might not know where the ketchup is kept and thatll keep me entertained. by the way, if its … Continue reading Tolerating in the workplace, the MH way.