I think i'm having a bit of crisis at the moment, and I'm having this crisis in quiet. I've decided to come here and write down whats going on in my head because I cant really find the words to tell a person, so maybe you lot can just read it and that'll be fine. … Continue reading Crisis of Fear and Commitment
Just recently I've been struggling to get out of bed. Usually this would be because i'm not feeling great and my mental health has deteriorated a bit. But this time it's because i'm tired. I'm tired because I've been busy, but what is 'busy'? have I really been busy, or am I just using what … Continue reading A Week of Fatigue From a Single Days Work.
today started well. i woke up and found out i have a job interview in a weeks time. this is a big deal for me. i havent been to a job interview in seven and a half years, which was for my last job. ive got all sorts going on with me. i dont know … Continue reading May the fourth be with me!
beyond my best judgement ive decided im going to start applying for a job. im not going big, only part time, but i need to move the boundaries of what i think im capable of right now. sure i think im not completely ready, but something thats been nagging in my head is that maybe … Continue reading Small big steps.
Life isn't a job. No-one should have to work on life to be happy, but sometimes people have to. I honestly think if i hadn't worked as hard as i have to even be content with parts of my life i would even be here anymore. I don't have a job so i can … Continue reading The biggest goal in a few words.